It’s Called “Sober”

It’s the New Year! Hello 2013! In life there is always a new chapter to begin again, we have finished 366 pages of 2012 and we are back to page 1 in another story which is called 2013. For the New Year, I want to breathe in fresh air and start a new experience, be who I am yet be different at the same time. I used to be in a very dark place and I’m still trying to dig myself out of it. I’m trying to mend these bruises I got and be sober enough to mend the scars that was left.

 

I’m trying to clear my mind

I told you to give me time

But you wouldn’t wait

And I was a little too late

*******

Letting you hang on a thread

While I tried to clear my head

I could’ve said yes but I’m not sober

Now you’re walking away saying it’s over

*******

Do you know what it feels like?

Not being able to touch the ground

Feel as if you’re about to break down

I’m about to set off like a bomb

That’s ready to explode

I’m in the middle of a disaster

While you were waiting

For me to get myself together

*******

We were both at the wrong moment

I’m still picking up the pieces

Of my ticking heart

I’m still trying to find them

*******

My head is not in a right place

I’m still covered in bruises

I’m not sober enough to mend

Not balanced to stand on my own

*******

Do you know what it feels like?

Not being able to touch the ground

Feel as if you’re about to break down

I’m about to set off like a bomb

That’s ready to explode

I’m in the middle of a disaster

Trying to steer clear of the rocks falling

I’m not yet sober to get myself together

But I should’ve known you won’t wait

*******

I’m trying to keep myself together

Try to make myself seem stronger

You’re tired of hanging on a thin line

While I’m busy trying to pick myself up

I’m not balance to stand on my own

Because I’m still not sober

*******

My emotions are unstable

I’m trying to get rid of these voices

Trying to heal my bruises

I’m still finding my pieces

Of what was left of me…

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